In case you missed our big announcement on Instagram, IT'S A GIRL! 💗 We had planned on finding out with a gender reveal party with our close friends and family by our sides, but between my constant sickness, neither of us loving the pressure of being the center of attention, and the fact that our new house is in no shape to host a party, we decided to find out a little differently. As in, when we had our anatomy ultrasound we decided on a whim we wanted to find out right then and there. Patience, planning, and executing events are definitely not things I would call my strengths. 😂
Honestly? We were both so surprised! I really didn't have a hunch one way or the other, but had thought boy most of the time because I knew that's the way that Sean was leaning ... I really think we were both in shock when we left that appointment! Neither of us had any big reaction or anything, but I think a lot of that came from just being so thankful that everything else with the ultrasound showed that she is perfectly healthy. The reality set in that night when we made a Target run for sweet baby things that we have a daughter ... we both couldn't be more excited. Oh, and hearing Sean refer to us as "his girls"? 😍 Y'all, just when I thought I couldn't love this man anymore than I already do, he says something like that and totally proves me wrong.
We shared the news with both of our family's with cupcakes from the same bakery that did our wedding deserts, and had them fill them with pink buttercream ... Watching everyone's reactions when they bit into those cupcakes was priceless! Coming from a family of all girls, the running joke has been that we wouldn't know what to do with anything else! I can tell you one thing for sure, Emerson Grey, you are already the most loved baby girl in the entire world! Now, onto the rest of this bumpdate ...
WHAT ARE WE MOST EXCITED ABOUT NEXT?
I think it's safe to say that we're both crazy excited to welcome our sweet girl into the world asap, but at the same time, we wouldn't be terribly mad if she decided to hang out for a while longer. 😉 We have so much left to do to prepare for her arrival, but I'm enjoying just taking everything in day by day at this point. I can't believe that we're only a couple of months away from meeting her face to face!
WHAT I MISS
Sleeping on my stomach, having any sort of body awareness (I swear I bump into things a million times a day), not waking up at 4am on the dot every morning to pee, being able to move around without my muscles aching like crazy ... you know, the usual stuff. 😂 I'm so thankful that, for the most part, I've had a pretty uneventful pregnancy (aside from a couple of anxious moments induced by too many hours on google), but I have to say ... this has definitely not been an easy journey for me. I'll delve more into all of that in a post all of it's own, but to keep it simple, I miss feeling like myself. I've been trying my best to live in the moment as much as possible, focus on the joy I feel with her constant (not so tiny) movements reminding me that she's there, and recently trying harder to not complain of every ache and pain and nauseous moment. Growing a tiny human is definitely no walk in the park, but this healthy baby girl is worth every moment of it.
Girlfriend is wiggling and rolling and kicking and punching every second of every day. To the point where I actually start to worry a bit if I haven't felt her in 10 minutes! I don't think she has a lot of room in there with my short frame so I feel every little flinch, hiccup, and slight bit of movement that she makes ... It's the best and weirdest feeling in the entire world. Sean will reach his hand over to feel her moving around, and always thinks she's going crazy until I remind him every time that it's just the way she is all the time! 😂
Oh, and did I mention how stinking stubborn she is!? She'll be moving for 20 minutes straight, but the second I grab someone else's hand to feel her wiggling, she'll stop. They'll move their hand away, and she'll start right back up again! It's the craziest thing ... She has to know that it's someone else's hand. Either that, or my breathing / heart rate / something changes when someone else's hand is on my belly.
We've continued our Saturday morning "tradition" of checking the apps on my phone to see how big Emmy has grown each week ... our app says she's as big as a cucumber, but y'all, I'm just not buying it. Unless we have a different kind of cucumber in Kentucky than the rest of the world, this girl is definitely bigger than that!
HOW I'M FEELING
I covered most of this earlier, and in the spirit of not complaining a ton, I'm feeling ok. I feel so immensely blessed and blown away by what my body is capable of, but I also find myself wishing I could be one of those blissed out women who love every minute of pregnancy. Everyone's journey is so different, and this is definitely not how I expected to feel when I pictured myself being pregnant. Outside of the physical things and mental cloudiness, I'm loving every second of being able to be the one to carry, protect, and love on my baby girl everyday!
Still no crazy cravings to report, but I would be totally content eating nothing but apples with peanut butter, cookies + cream ice cream, and mexican food for the rest of my life. Now that I think about it though, that's really not much different than me on any other day (pregnant or not) so I guess it doesn't really count.
Still not a huge fan of pizza, and that's pretty much the only thing that never sounds good ... We ordered our go-to from Dominos the other night (thin crust fiery hawaiian) because it was too late to grab anything else, and after just one small piece I was totally done. I have no idea why, but any kind of pizza makes me feel so sick!
Emmy is growing like crazy which means this sweet bump is, too! I pretty much look the same everywhere else aside from my belly which I'm totally not complaining about! One thing that has changed is the swelling in my hands and feet. My wedding ring doesn't fit anymore (tried to put it on for a shoot this morning and it got stuck! 😳), and I'm officially not going to be wearing any shoes other than of my Birks until August. Thank goodness it's summer because I have no idea what I would do if it were cold outside!
And that about covers it! I have so many posts saved over in my drafts about my pregnancy journey, and I can't wait to put the finishing touches on them to share them with you all. I go through an ebb and flow when it comes to writing, but when I have something strong on my heart that I'm trying to process myself, it's like therapy for me to journal it out and hit publish. Journaling through this space helps me learn more about myself every time I sit down to write something outside of the box and a little bit deeper than usual. As always, thank you so much for following along + catching up with me. I appreciate it more than you know!